Thinking and Growing Rich

The key to happiness is to have a  dream,

The key to success is making them come true.

I haven’t eaten anything for 3 days now. I have lived on water and a few chips (three days ago). I honestly am a bit depressed yesterday, I’ve just missed my job interview for the “big job” that I’ve been preparing for. My USB modem was borrowed by a friend and wasn’t returned on time. It wasn’t really mine at the first place.

Anyway, I woke up this afternoon feeling dead. I almost couldn’t move a muscle and wanting to puke my stomach out. I woke up several times today but didn’t bother rising up. I’m as immobile as any non-kinetic inanimate object. I’m getting thinner but heavier because I’m getting weaker as well.

Because I haven’t eaten much, I started to think of this as my way of fasting for special intentions. Accidental fasting, really. These “special intentions” might motivate me despite my demotivating condition. As much as I wanted to get pissed off, I just can’t. I don’t think I’d want to waste my energy on anger.

I prayed and fasted for all the people I love; that they may find happiness and joy in all areas of their life. I also pray that they will continuosly seek God in whatever they do.

It’s quite ironic that a starving lady fasts for all those who are already living in abundance. That’s precisely the point. I don’t want them to go through all these things that I’m experiencing right now because I love them. Living in abundance isn’t really the key to happiness.

I’m not living in abundance but I have an abundant nature. I give as if I possess enough earthly wealth for myself. I give money as if I carry with me a fat purse. I give food to street children as if I have eaten enough this month. I spend time with people I love as if I have so much time left to live my personal desires. I love as if the universe has given me a life full of love. Despite the desperate times, I still dream about being the future Philanthropist that I can be-- build libraries and sponsor weekly feeding on public schools, et cetera. 

I'm a nobody, for now, for a while. But with a burning desire backed with faith, I know someday I can extend my love to those who are in need. I may be starving, I may be broke, but no storm lasts for a month. My goals are definite and I make sure that as I walk my way to success, I'll be lifting other people's lives as well.

I may not see God’s abundance in my life but I see His blessings in myself. At the end of your life, you have nothing else left but you. Everything else passes while you strive forward searching for your purpose.

I have known a lot of people who have good jobs and earn good pays but complain a lot about all day’s work. They gain something but at the end of every single day of their working life, they complain as if they have gained nothing out of whatever they have sacrificed most of their time for.

I, on the other hand, live in food scraps and dreams. I do live an authentic life. Being in the freelance business might be quite a headache sometimes and there’s no guarantee that I could earn residual income for the rest of my life. I worry a lot about the bills and how I’ll be able to live my dream of being a philanthropist without having a lot of money. But I never quit designing websites and serving my clients. I have lived with something that gives me fulfillment. I worked with something that I’m passionate about. If I’ll live again, I want to do the same thing because that’s where I could find my burning desire.

As you read this line, I bless you with abundance and grace. May you live the life that gives you motivation. You might be rich or jobless, it doesn’t matter. God has laid out his plans for you too see your worth. Live your purpose and be happy with what you have without having to stop dreaming about what you can have soon.